There are glorious nights in my life when I am completely satisfied
with the fact that I know nothing of what the next day will bring.
There are also hidious days when I consume myself in
vanity, greed, and anger.

I'm terribly sad that's its taken sixteen years of my life to see.

each day I am blessed with two amazing girls. . .
and so to those with best friends,
when was the last time you got to break down
any hard exterior and just cry your love for them?

this summer has been one of strange and wonderful experiances,
and in the end I'm going to jump fully blinded into what comes next
and for the first time in my life I feel ready.
bursting at the seams with passion, and craving wisdom
and adventure.

I know I never make sense, and hopefully some
actual interesting posts will fill this blog.

thank you strangers for your kindness you have shown me on here
it means a lot to me.

quotes that kind of make my heart beat.

"I think everyone should wear their hearts on their sleeves.
That way, we can revert back to the simple, candid, pleasures in life.
No more misinterpretation, miscommunication or misguidance.
We can all live in the pure, raw, truth. As hard as it may be to face, it's sweeter in its simplicity.
When we're gifted in this masked existence, it's saccharine, processed so
much that it's hard to tell if it's real. In the absence of the false,
we'd adjust, shedding our skepticism and donning a renewed peace.
But, we lie, we cheat, and we're all fake.
People should all be made of plastic. At least then we'd be recyclable"

-Emma-Lee

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."

-Captain Corelli's Mandolin

"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love."

-Jane Austen

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds: “What does love mean?”
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think…

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“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.”

Rebecca - age 8

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“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.”

Billy - age 4

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“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.”

Terri - age 4

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“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.”

Danny - age 7

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“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss.”

Emily - age 8

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“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.”

Bobby - age 7

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“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate.”

Nikka - age 6

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“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.”

Noelle - age 7

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“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.”

Tommy - age 6

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“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.

He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.”

Cindy - age 8

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“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.”

Elaine - age 5

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“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.”

Chris - age 7

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“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.”

Mary Ann - age 4

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“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.”

Lauren - age 4

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“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.”

Karen - age 7

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“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.”

Mark - age 6

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“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.”

Jessica - age 8

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And the final one…

Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.  The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.  Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.  When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said:
“Nothing.  I just helped him cry.”

la fin.

as for my actual life, I've been dealing with someone who's dying
and before you say I'm sorry don't because for once the experience
is one of wonder not sadness.




`141 days! <3